My infidelity that night in 2006 was only one act in a ten-year drama. Cindy's death didn't mean an end to my demons.
Doesn't it stand to reason that people who witness horrific things as part of their job description might suffer mental health issues as a result?
Those we mythologize as fearless are often the most scared of all.
Cindy Anne MacKenzie committed suicide on March 26, 2010. She was 38 years old. We had been together for 16 years but separated at the time of her death. She was the mother of our 2 daughters. These are the notes I took during our separation. There are many more. It's painful to read them - even after all this time has passed. I took them in a desperate attempt to protect myself and my children. I spent every single day worried that she would manage to have them taken from me. Writing them down was also a way to [...]